Loneliness

Cristine ( an officemate and a fellow kargador of our office equipments ie, 17-21" crt monitors, cpu and like around 300 of them and other computer peripherals) and I decided to get our nails done yesterday after we realized our nails need some little pampering from carrying all those heavy stuffs back and forth in our 1,024 sqm office for a week of what we call "move-out storm". Our nails could pass for a certified porter working at a bus terminal or sea port. lol.

On our way to ayala, a familiar music was played in her car stereo and I almost forgot that I once I fell in love with this song. Being good in memorizing lyrics, I wanted to sing while it was played but no words would come out from my mouth. I remember having to play this over and over again just so I could memorize the lyrics until my officemates were so annoyed already.

Today, armed with the line "I won't give in without fight", I googled the song. After, screening the returns, I finally found out that Laura Pausini sang the song and the song title is Loneliness.

I didn't know if the song has relevance to my life then, but listening to it today just make me realize how lonely I am...here's the lyrics and I downloaded the mp3 from this site.


Loneliness

I don't even know if he still thinks of me
Once he got on board that unforgiving train
I imagine that he whiled away the time
Through the cold Grey morning and the city rain
Thinking of somebody else who'll run to him
Who'll ask him "Did you miss me maybe now and then?
"Laughing he'll say "Well I met this funny girl,
But just a summer thing I won't see her again"

Oh God I hope I'm wrong
But I'm not feeling very strong
I've been so up and down so sad
So happy feeling good and bad
I'm young I'm old I laugh I cry
I tell the truth but that's a lie
I've been so in and out so wild
so well behaved so pure defiled
Oh Solitudine, that word I hate to say...Nah, nah, nah...Nah, nah, nah...

And no I wasn't crazy to do what we did
I even wish I'd been a bit more crazy still
And kept a little more of him to see me through
He loved me all he could I never had my fill
And then I'm back inside my room he knows so well
I feel again the way he moved I take it slow
I talk to him and he becomes a part of me
And then I know he'll never let the summer go

Oh God I hope I'm right
I won't give in without a fight
And I can take the words they throw
At me for none of them could know
That we had something very few
Will ever find their whole life through
I wouldn't change a single day
Although the price I have to pay
Is Solitudine, the loneliness, is tearing me apart
It tears me up it pulls me down and then
It wraps around my heart

Oh Solitudine, Does he remember all he said to me
I've been so up and down so sad
So happy feeling good and bad
I'm young I'm old I laugh I cry
I tell the truth but that's a lie
I've been so in and out so wild
So well behaved so pure defiled

Oh Solitudine,
Does he remember all he said to me
But I can take the words they throw at me
For none of them could know
That we had something very few
We'll ever find their whole life through
I wouldn't change a single day
Although the price I have to pay
Is SOLITUDINE...